Struggle with Temptation

"How much you know about me?"

I said:

"I don't know. I would not be able to gauge that because even I don't know myself and what I am capable of. I know who and what I want to be. But if I can't, what am I?"

I can be negative at times and when it comes down to this, I know that I'm not the only one struggling to break the habits.

Let me just say this straight out:

If you know that you can or could be addicted to something, don't even think of trying it.

Addiction starts of small and people think during those times, they have control over it. I do not wish to doubt them but I know what its like to be addicted. Eventually even the people who are taking careful tries of it may lose their sense of balance at preventing themselves from overdoing.

Addictions that are hard to break out of feels good or feels terrible when you try to stop it as it makes people crave for it. But if you're honest with yourself and if you know the harms it brings, then you should know very well that continuing on this path will not do us good.Probably devastation awaits at the end of it.

It really takes strong will and determination to resist temptation. However, if you can, its a wiser choice to run from it.

Even resistance can falter. But running from it gives us a higher chance to neglect and forget about doing it.

Regarding people who're addicted:

And if you ever break out, never be foolish enough to go back into it again.

Unless and yet unlikely your will is sufficient enough to last through it, you will be sucked into it just like leaving off an inclining speeding  jet-plane.

I'm writing this and referring it to myself as well.

I'm wearing a cotton glove while typing this now... damn bad finger biting habits..

Oh- and people who're curious and know me, I don't smoke. That's not it.

Be vigilant and aware~

- Mervyn

Customization Precautions

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Not sure if people reading this are fancy about customizing their things but...

When I have time and I don't want to do anything else... I would have fun customizing my Windows 7 computer's theme.

I don't actually make the customization but I do download those themes from the internet to try them out.

Its quite a time-passing hobby... Like how some people just roam around in deviantArt and search for arts for hours to put as wallpapers... or something like that...

Well.. When customizing stuffs, if those who just started digging deep already... *ahem*

There is always a precaution to take, something we should aware about which is changing core system files...

I'm pretty sure some of you have certain experiences, not regarding computer's operating system as well...

Perhaps a handheld device or phone, when you accidentally change something you were not supposed to change in the core of the system and accidentally.. bricked it whether its because you did it manually or a virus you have accepted into the system did it..

Then we're like all nervous or panicky or just having a bored / troubled / disturbed look on our face all day...

Yeap.. I guess I've been there... so this is sort of just a reminder and perhaps.. a sharing of what I gathered about these experiences I had.. perhaps it could help anyone reading this in general to fix something...

If you are desperately in a need to fix and restore your Windows 7 core system files, you could find "cmd.exe" in run, right-click and "Run as administrator" and in it type in "sfc /scannow".

What it does is to scan your entire system to find changed / altered files and replace them with the correct copy. After the scanning is complete, you would have to reboot your computer to allow the changes to take place..

Well kinda screwed my computer by trying to "Aero Patch" to allow "Personalize" user interface to be modified... and now I cannot access it.

Now I can't change my themes because I cannot reach there... and I can't set specifically my desktop wallpaper stuffs too... Oh wells..

Another very "dangerous" thing:

Be really Really REALLY careful about installing multiple unlike themes that changes core files... they could corrupt themselves and especially if they both contain changes to either the Start Boot-up or Logon/Login Screens.. If that portion of your customization gets corrupted, you won't even be able to access your computer's "Desktop" and you probably have to literally reformat your computer at the very start of the system... like the 1st thing you see on the screen, pressing certain key to enter System Recovery mode...

I mean.. I've experienced that before and during the System Recovery, being naive to the sort of jargon language (something general people can't comprehend/understand), thinking that it will only reformat the window's partition which I thought was only going to reformat the system's side of things... I cancelled the drive backup and lost all my schoolwork data... so...

Yea.. just.. be careful of stuffs yea?...

And perhaps before I end it... perhaps you guys would like to give your opinions or share your experiences about stuffs that happened too.. maybe some additional fixes you found?..

Happy careful customizing~

- Mervyn

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Well "sfc /scannow" didn't work for me this time.

The last time it worked for me if was when I accidentally modified something directly related to System32 (a .dll I think), and it instantly start auto-closing explorer.exe. So I had to access everything via Task Manager's new task button to get chrome.exe and cmd.exe.

I already tried researching more stuffs and came across some solutions that did not work out for me as well, but if you're having problems perhaps you could try it:

// Problems in the case of prohibited Control Panel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rPHWXqtxfTQ
// If you can't find gpedit.exe, this may come in handy, after installation of it I found mine in C:\Windows\SysWOW64\GPBAK
http://thecustomizewindows.com/2011/07/group-policy-editor-gpedit-msc-in-windows-7-home-premium-enable/

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Found a workaround!! I was about to resort to reformatting...

// Last post, someone found himself/herself a workaround...
http://www.sevenforums.com/general-discussion/291763-unspecified-error-explorer-exe-when-i-click-personalize.html

So I could create a Personalize shortcut folder and access if there instead of right-clicking on Desktop!!
To that person if you're ever reading this, Thank you.

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Apparently I finished customizing my desktop and the Personalize on right-click works now as well, the "Aero Patch" allowed me to do a revert (remove and restore the default files) for it so yea...
In the end I did not use it at all. Turns out, from the forum I read that the theme has a bug inside of its other separate component that needed to be installed and I installed the fixed uploaded version... Sooo.. yea cool

Looking awesome now . . .

Anxiety Out of bounds & Procrastination

Part I: Anxiety Out of bounds

Have you ever done something you regret and thought a lot about it the whole day till you could not neither get your daily workloads done nor get enough sleep for the next day?

Or are you about to do something good for others you tried to do before years ago knowing that it turned out badly years ago? And because of that hesitate and keep focusing your timely energy only about it?

What you could be doing is Worrying. Worrying anxiety.

Anxiety can do a lot of harm for us over a period of time.

This include stomach ulcers, stress, other illnesses as it tends to bring down the body.

Have you ever heard of this phrase?:
"Yesterday's the past, tomorrow's the future, but today is a gift. That's why it's called the present."

Don't worry for the future for it is to only be experienced and matter later.

Don't worry for the past for whats done is already done.

Only matter for what might happen today.

Not to be unconcern about the future, you should still be concern about it.

But what worrying does is to keep you spiraling round and round at a thought without proceeding on to do anything else.

Or take substantial energy and ability from you from doing anything at all.

Do your best of abilities today that it will in turn meet the concerns of tomorrow.

Take it one step at the time.

Remember, whenever you're worrying, be aware of what it will do to you

and ask yourself: Does it really matter?

Part II: Procrastination

Sometimes we're bored or tired of certain matters on our hands that may not be urgent yet.

And then we decide that "Well at least we could always do it later... Since it doesn't really matter now".

Soon, with the continued mentality, we find ourselves throwing workloads to be done only later.

Till we find a brick wall for the workload, its deadline.

Rushing through it, we may find it challenging or impossible to work around or through it.

Then we have to face the consequences prepared for us partly by ourselves.

(Whether be it a sleepy individual we may become or something less or more serious than that..)

The anti-procrastinating measure is to start doing whatever have been given to us instantly and continue with it as it goes on till we are able to finish it.

We should plan ahead what works should have more priorities during the certain periods of time.

Some time management or scheduling is involved.

We should not assume it to be easy just by the looks of it.

Don't underestimate it or the difficulties of getting it done may pile up over the tasks of the scheduled other.

Well.. frankly overestimating is a bad thing too because if the time taken for a task is shorter than expected then we may take more than necessary rests between the next, which may then be wasting some work time you could spend for improving ect. ect... ...

Then... well.. actually overestimating is a precaution taken for workloads that is not measurable as you have not experience it hence do not know how to gauge the time needed for it.

The issue is: Finish things earlier so during the later phase, you could either improve it or hopefully rest for a longer period.

Perhaps spend time for other things you wanted to do in life?

Take care of yourself~

- Mervyn

Life Inheritance...

Sometimes out of the blue, I start pondering about the past...
I just feel like we are not one absolute individual ourselves. Its as if we inherited down our ancestors traits and I thought.. maybe they live in us as we live? Or to say the least, part of them.

But even so, it doesn't necessarily mean that we are to only follow past forged for us.
We should still forge our own path because we are neither the people that conceived us nor the people that conceived them.
We should not be limited by what they have done or what they can do.
We should have freedom to develop our own traits and "transcend" our ancestors just as they have "transcended" theirs.
That is our nature in the first place.
By all means, if your footsteps is the same as your parents or ancestors.. I'm not saying you should abandon that path but I find that unlikely. Though who knows, history may repeat itself in a similar scenario..

This is perhaps why I seem to think that I'm never completely alone.
But hey, the more the merrier right? Though it sucks to think about an ending of an especially joyful ride.
People do move on. We may miss them. But we'll still meet new people in our life.

Have a safe trip~

- Mervyn

1st Post from a long time again

Ello~

Welcome to LolRapid's personal blog~

I sort of abandoned my previous blog for now but since it continues to keep good memories and I'm still not ready to let it go yet..

I'll let it stay.. (haha u dun say sherlock -.-'')

This blog purpose is mainly to keep track of daily life stuffs...
But I guess once in awhile I'll just speak casually my thoughts, no matter how immature they're..

Soo... without further ado... Let's get it going shall me?

I will be doing password-protected post from now that is personal and not to be shared.

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Oh yea and just before I forget.. A reference link to the encryption page that will be useful:
http://www.vincentcheung.ca/jsencryption/